sad,nervous n lost hope

Morning..morning..morning..

mulakan pagi anda ngan basmallah n senyuman yg manis

ak sedey sangat arinie..dari semalam agie actually,aser cam xdek mood n macam-macam agie yg meracau fikiran ku..

yahh,supposely arinie ak wat sensory tuk FYP ak,but ak xleyh wat arinie coz i'm did'nt making juice yesterday..feel so sad and weary..returns home all tired and teary..

i have lost my smile..umpphh..

ak taw mang susah biler kita nie xdek transport segala,then xkan ar kita nak paksa-paksa owang lain tolong kita kan..

so,nak k xnak k,ak terpaksa gak wat next week sensory 2..dah lah AT LEAST 30 panelists..then,kne wat 3 samples for each..perghh..

..SABOR JER LAAHH..

ak aser hepy biler intan dah dapat tempat LI..Alhamdulillah.beznyer dye dapat kat Macfood,supplier for McDonald yg kita2 selalu makan 2 kann..wawa pown bezz gak dapat Oriental,cam snack-snack..mang femes gak kan coz kita mang penah dengar nama-nama company nie..sedangkan ak,tah pape company tah ak pown xtaw..ak x mengharapkan somting yg femes k ape,tapi lau leyh,biarlah ok kann..hmmm..

then,skang da nak masuk week 12,tapi first draft pown ak x anta agie..yer,mang ak ader kesedaran tapi ak asyik sangkut jew kat methodology nie..ak dah xleyh bazir masa agie,ak kena lebih serius,fokus n rajin even 2 sumer bukan AKU..arie-arie ak bukak laptop,then distracted ngan benda-benda lain..tah ape pown,ak xtaw..

mang aser nervous da skang nie,yer ar week 14 dah kne anta full thesis which juz remain 3 more weeks..then,week 15 da nak kena present FYP..2 ar cam scary giler,ak nie da ar selalu less confidence..

sometimes,ak aser cam low,loser n so on..ak dah putus harapan since ak kena check TPC..juz imagine,ngan equipment that i should use tiba-tiba rosak..everyday,ak kena ulang-alik dari lab food k lab bioprocess yg TERLALU dekat 2..before nak guna other lab section,mesti dapatkan verify dari head of department dowang dulu kann..3 arie ak keluar masuk kat lecturers room bawu dapat sign..mang time 2,ak dah cam give up jew,then biler wat experiment,result yg ak dapat sume salah,x seperti yg Madam nak..so,how come???

arie-arie ak berdoa supaya result ak cantek n FYP ak cepat habis..ngan penuh kesabaran,finally,ciap gak FYP ak n now tgallah sensory ak yg tergendala n menyedihkan 2..

bagi ak,sem nie sangat rush n mengerikan..mybe,this is my final year here..ak aser belum terlambat agie tuk ak bangun daripada bermimpi di siang hari..

Ya Allah,berikanlah ak kekuatan semangat n ketabahan hati untuk menempuh segala dugaan yg datang..Kau permudahkanlah segala urusanku,berkatilah rezeki yg Kau berikan padaku n murahkanlah rezekiku..

AMIIINNN

NEVER GIVE UP!!

juz think why my friends can survive??so,i also can

just trust urself,sya..

wake up n get better from day to day

..From deep of my heart..